Learning

I think for the longest time I tried to make sense of all of it. That there was a reason for it all and that my happy ending was going to be so immense, and so great, that there would be no way to imagine arriving at it a different way. But that's not always the case. Actually it never is.

I'm constantly trying to find a reason. As we all do. Why did this happen. Who can I blame. Why me. There has to be a reason. But reason has it's limits. It might just not make sense, because reason will fail. Even more, I will fail. But love doesn't. Grace doesn't. Jesus doesn't.

"It took more then my strength to simply be still. To seek but never find."

But sometimes, things that seem unreasonable, can slowly begin to make sense. And it took a year. But I am realizing I have a much bigger part in this story than I ever began to imagine. And He has a far greater plan.

I guess you could say I'm learning that I'm learning. Humility is beautiful.